Perfection… I was planning a tutorial post for today but I decided to share instead – I know you’re thinking “I’d rather have a DIY post” but oh well maybe later this week, today I want to chat about perfection – when I say chat I mean more talk to myself and hope that someone out there is reading this agreeing or disagreeing with me. I was on Facebook yesterday when I came across a post by Holly of Charm and Gumption – I’ve gushed about her before and as always her latest post hit me right in the gut, well not literally but you know what I mean – it spoke to me (figuratively of course, I don’t hear voices…) Holly’s post was about dealing with perfectionism and it is awesome. She explains her story a bit and shares some helpful tips on how to deal with it.
I tend to agree with Holly when she says that these days we seem to consider perfectionism a good thing. I think most people like to do things and do them well which isn’t really considered perfectionism it’s just the way most people are. I think the true meaning of the word has been clouded over and has become the latest ‘it’ thing like Aztec or Ombre their popular so everyone has to have it – but for people like myself and Holly who really do have perfectionism it sucks, like seriously sucks. Like the kind sucky feeling you get when you’re so excited about a trip to the beach and all of a sudden it rains. Maybe more than that… I don’t know but it’s seriously sucky.
Being a perfectionist literally consumes my days, if I’m working on a project I plan it, plan it and plan it some more – I over plan it because I HAVE to get it right, it’s simply just not acceptable if it comes out okay or even good… it has to be perfect. Like exactly the way I pictured in my head when I came up with the idea. Anything less and it’s simply not okay.
I cannot tell you the number of projects I’ve thrown out because they weren’t perfect even though in reality they were pretty darn close. Everyone thinks I’m being a drama queen about these little things but the simple truth is that I just can’t handle it if it’s not perfect, like it makes me feel as if I’m about to burst into tears and that I’m no good at anything. It’s hard feeling like that but that’s the way it is. For the most part people don’t know just how obsessive I can be – unfortunately I also suffer from OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) Anxiety and I’m a hypochondriac (don’t laugh it’s not funny, it’s scary) I don’t know why I have to be such a complex human being but for the most part I know that this is who I am and this is the way God made – flawed and imperfect.
I’m okay with that… mostly. Sometimes I read the blogs of other wonderful blogger friends and I see how pretty they are, how gorgeous their projects are or their houses or photography and it just makes me sad. I wonder why I’m not like that, why I’m not ‘perfect’ like everyone else. But then I realise that although it may seem like it – those people I adore and admire aren’t perfect, they are just like me: flawed, imperfect and special. Because no-one is perfect, that’s the way it’s meant to be because like my mum always says “what kind of a world would it be if we were all the same” and that’s so true.
So for the most part I try to rock my perfectionism, as hard as it is to live with, as crippling as it can be I rock it because I know that other people out there are like that too – and that makes me feel better, that other people know what it’s like to feel like you’re about to cry because your project isn’t ‘perfect’ or because your blog isn’t as pretty as someone else’s. Reading Holly’s post made me want to talk about this with all of you – because I know that there are people reading this right now going “OMG, I’m like that!” because that is what I did when I read Holly’s article and reading her post about how she suffers from perfectionism and reading the tips she shared on dealing with it made me feel better. Like I’m not alone, like it’s okay to admit I struggle on an almost daily basis because someone else out there understands as well.
So anyone out there who said “OMG, I’m like that” when you read this post, check out Holly’s post – you’ll love it and leave a comment below sharing your story or whatever, because we shouldn’t hide our flaws, it’s not nice to others or ourselves to pretend we are perfect. We are all imperfect, flawed and special – so rock it!!